Hey everyone.  Well still in the hospital…BUT good news is fever has stayed steady at 99.5 for 24 hours (YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) and chills have stopped.  I actually ate food that stayed down yesterday and the resident said this morning that my WBC count was higher than .001 (which it held steady at Friday and Saturday as well)…He said Doc G. would let me know about it when he came in but they were waiting for the other part of this morning’s blood work to come back before he came in.  Yesterday ALL my counts fell low enough to be in the “critical” category so we did 3 transfusions (2 units of red blood cells and a unit of platelets) as well as a lot of IV supplements like potassium, calcium, etc (go figure since I hadn’t had any food in over 48 hours that stayed down…hmmm my nutrition values were low…imagine that)…but anywho…good news is other than the ever present intestinal issues (which have been around since round 5 actually so I’m actually getting used to them how sad is that)…I’m feeling MUCH better than I was on Thursday and Friday…Hopefully we’ll get to go home tomorrow )  I’ll let ya’ll know…well actually Doc G just came in…the transfusions got my RBC and platelet’s up yay…my WBC is up but still too low to even think about going home, but at least they’re producing so…at least there is that )

In news unrelated to discharge, the hospital nurses probably think I’m crazy (LOL which WE all already knew of course…see I AM feeling better) anywho, I am still a little bit more than stressed out and annoyed with this whole situation (not just the current hospital stay but cancer in general) which I’ve embraced as normal..anywho, normally I’m a pretty calm, even keel, steady “keep me informed but do what you have do do” patient…however in my current emotional and psychological state…well I’ve still managed to be the calm patient on the outside but it’s an effort as opposed to effortless this time…I don’t know if it’s because due to the fact that I’m not having chemo done this time so I have nurses and techs for the most part who don’t know me or if it’s b/c really for the most part I don’t have full RN’s only LPN’s, though actually I suspect it really is me and NOT them but normally instead of being calm and kind I either want to burst into hysterical tears, rip out my IV and beg them to let me go home or I want to throw something at them while screaming, rip out my IV and demand them to let me go home…ANYWHO, the point of the whole story is that I know myself very well and since I recognize that I’m a bit on the brink stress wise I’ve been destressing especially while I’m sleeping while here by listening to Kenny G’s “Miracles” Christmas CD on repeat, over and over and over again…This may sound bad to some, but to me it’s the easiest way to relax me which is great (sitting curled up in a comfy chair in a house with only me in it at the time with a nice cinnamon apple candle burning with the lights out and christmas lights on and a glass of hot cocoa with Bailey’s in it WHILE listening to Kenny G’s “Miracles” Christmas CD is Johnna’s ULTIMATE relaxation time, but since there’s not a comfy chair in this joint, no christmas lights, they won’t let me burn candles, and def. won’t let me have any bailey’s, I’ll settle for what I can get ) )…Anywho just thought I’d share why the nurses might say I’m a little odd in case word got out (grins) 

Love to all and peace out